We are headed to San Fran for a weekend away… without the kids. 

This is not a test.

A whole weekend without diapers or sippy cups. A whole weekend without transformers or the Wiggles. A whole weekend of being reminded why we got married in the first place and that we really do have fun together.

I am giddy with anticipation! I promise lots of pic’s of our outing as well. San Francisco here we come!!!

I’ve been a little out of it lately. Not feeling very inspired to write or record the ridiculous things that occur around me on a daily basis. I think it has mostly been because I have either been traveling for work, been sick with the flu or caring for a child sick with the flu. Any one of those things can zap the inspiration right out of a girl.

Good news is…I feel better and I don’t have to travel for work for a month! Also, just re-connected with a very old friend and it was fabulous. Kevin and I are going to go visit her soon in the City and I just can’t wait. I promise lots of pictures and stories from that adventure because I can’t imagine there won’t be lots to tell!

In the meantime I have been reading Dooce as usual. She won like every Bloggie known to man. It must be really cool to have found your calling in life AND to be recognized for it. Can’t help but wonder…what is in store for me? What will my calling be? Or am I already doing it and I just don’t know it?

Readers - did you find your “calling”? Do you even believe in such things?

“I’m into class. It’s my new thing.”

Gotta love 80’s movies.

Kevin: Dude you only have like 4 minutes left of HD on your DVR!

Josh: I know, this is stressing me out.

Kevin: Man, when mine gets down to like 9 hours, I just start deleting. Like, that, right there, that Mickey Mouse Clubhouse has got to go.

Josh: Yeah, it is sooooo gone. Look at me, right now, I am just deleting like crazy. Bye Bye Mickey.

Kevin: Don’t delete that Dirty Jobs man, that one is classic.

Josh: Never.

So for those of you that read this site, you know about my fanatical love for Heather B. Armstrong of Dooce. Not love, love but you know, like love?

Anyway, today, as I checked out her site, I was shocked. I mean just shocked.

Please check this out and then come back to my site. Okay, are you back now? Now look up. Yeah at my header. Do you see what I see? OMG, it is like we share a brain.

 It gets better though…look at this on my flickr site.

 How crazy is that people? Heather, when will you see that we are destined to be best friends?

Dear Joshie,

I am sure you won’t remember this but, you love the mornings. You babble and squeel until I come in your room and pick you up from your crib. You laugh out loud the minute I open the door and it instantly makes me happy. You say “da da da da da” into infinity. At first I was upset because you said “Daddy” before you said “Mommy” but at least you first word wasn’t “dog” like your brother…

When you are really tired you say “ma ma ma ma ma” and then “ny ny ny ny ny” until I scoop you up and put you in your crib. Not that you readily go to sleep - you are not a big fan of naps. However, I love that you want me when you feel tired. I like to think that it is because you know where safety and peace can be found. I hope to always provide that for you.

You have also started this adorable thing where you crawl to wherever I am and sit down. You then promptly put your head down and both of your arms in the air (think field goal). This is your way of saying “I would now prefer to be held.”

I was cleaning out the bathroom today and I ran across my positive pregnancy test from you. I know that seems gross that I kept it, but it was so amazing to find out I was pregnant with you, that just looking at that plus sign (now faded) makes my heart feel full and complete. Joshua you have no idea what a blessing you are. You have changed me and challenged me so much from the moment I found out I was pregnant to now… and I suspect for as long as I am privledged to be your “ma ma ma ma.”

You turn 1 in less than a month, I suspect you will be officially walking by then. I can’t imagine how that will change the dynamics of our already busy household but I am ready for the next challenge. In the meantime, I am going to keep writing all of these things down, the little things you do because I just don’t want to forget.

I love you Joshie Bear.

Most nights, Isaac requests that I lay with him for a while at bedtime. It is usually just a stalling technique, along with:

 ”I have to go pee!”

 ”I need a drink of water” or my personal favorite….

“Daddy said I could play with a toy in bed!”

When I do acquiesce and lay down with him, he begins the chitter-chattering of a 3 year old avoiding sleep:

“Mommy what time is it”

“What does 8 o’clock mean?”

“Why is 8 o’clock bedtime”

“Why are all little boys going to sleep right now”

“Well I’m not tired”

You get the point. So, you can imagine my surprise when I laid down with him tonight and he said nothing. Total silence. He rolled over and clutched his stuffed elephant (Ellie is a new fixture on the bedtime scene these days), wrapped himself in his blanket and was quiet. I could tell that tonight, it wasn’t about stalling. Tonight, it was about me being near him. He just wanted someone to lay close to him while he drifted to sleep. It felt heavenly to be needed in this simple way.

Three year old’s have a way of sucking the air out of the room and the energy from your bones with their constant activity and questions. Isaac has mastered the task of pushing my buttons. In less than 10 words he can have me reeling with frustration. 

Tonight though, as he snuggled next to me in silence,  his stillness communicated a need to my heart that all mom’s have. We want to know that we are important to our children. We want to know we are necessary for more than just putting on the next DVD, unwrapping a piece of gum or retrieving fruit snacks. We want to know that our children sense the bond between mother and child and desire that deep connection.

Tonight, all of the stress of this week was slowly pulled from my mind as Isaac drifted to sleep holding on to Ellie and my heart.

Apparently an MSNBC commentator is now on leave because he stated that the Clinton campaign was “pimping out” Chelsea to make calls the superdelegates. You can read the whole article here. Mrs. Clinton freaked out and threatened to never debate on the network again. Of course, this stressed out the investors and well, Bye Bye Mr. Commentator.

So, now when the press calls it like it is, then it is cause for removal? Nice. I am really looking forward to another Clinton Presidency.

NOT!

Well then. I am no longer allowed to make political predictions on this site.

After this debacle and yesterday’s predictions, I pretty much need to hang up my crystal ball and let the professionals do their job. However, according to Andrew Sullivan, I am in good company because a Zogby poll had Obama taking Clinton in California by 12 points!

If you are interested in a good re-cap of what happened yesterday, head over to Andrew Sullivan’s page, as it has a plethora of good info.

Okay so I’ve had like 72 different site designs in the past 2 months. I’m fickle, what can I say. I am done now though. I found a theme that I like and I finally made a header that doesn’t make me want to puke after seeing it more than five times.

I apologize for any  inconvenience.

THE MANAGEMENT