The post below is an entry for a contest to win a trip for two to a conference by Donald Miller. If you have been around here for a while, you know I am a big fan of his. As I wrote this entry, I realized I’ve never really wanted something more than this. I think that is a good sign that it is the right place to start.
I can feel the constriction from any given point in my day. It is like a belt that tightens around my heart, my dreams for tomorrow.
The voice that says: “You could go to law school!” is always answered by the voice that says “But we have too much debt already.”
Again the optimist says: “We could give to that ministry!” is again followed by the “We have to pay our debt first.”
The second voice isn’t mean, just practical. The problem is, the practical has squashed the dreamer, the optimist, almost to the point of extinction. In considering entering this contest, I realized I was in pretty bad shape because I couldn’t identify what story I wanted to live. I hadn’t allowed myself to think about that because my eyes are fixated on the here and now. The future isn’t something I can afford to consider.
Our story isn’t different than many others in this economy, we lived beyond our means for a time when things were good. Then jobs changed, the market changed, we had another child and…..well now we have enough consumer debt that we feel a little strangled on most days. All of the big ideas, the good ideas, the God ideas, get shelved.
The dreaming. gets. shelved.
It is squashing my spirit, pulling in tight around the corners and making me feel less alive. So what is the better story? What am I hoping to do? My hope is that by writing about this, talking about it out loud, my commitment to changing it will be forged into solid, granite determination to rid ourselves of debt. That the ideas for changing it will flow like water out of a refreshed soul.
God’s Word is clear about debt. It takes away our freedom to think big, to live the story that attracts and promotes joy.
So my plan is this:
I love to write and I have had a blog for a long time now. I would like to find a way to make money doing something that I love so that I can help pay down our debt. Debt that I had a big hand in accumulating (thanks Banana Republic!). In order to make any decent contribution to this debt, I am going to need some help with networking my blog and advertising on my site. I admittedly don’t know where to start with this but there are people who do. There are also people who need writers for contract work and here I am, raising my hand, saying I’m up for it.
I know that everyone with a blog thinks they can make money with it and a few posts into blogging they quickly realize they most likely won’t. I’ve been doing this for years and have no illusions about what it would take. I also know that I have the talent, the determination and the desire to make it happen. I want to use the passion God gave me for writing and help my family dig out of debt so that we can live a better story together. So that we can dream big together. I want my boys, all three of them, to experience freedom of heart. I want to give them that gift, the gift of a good example.
Going to this seminar, I expect to have the fire of imagination and future planning lit. I need your help to do it.
Here is the video Don posted about the conference, check it out:Read More